Can u fix me?

I think im depressed. I dont care about things anymore. I hate talking to people sometimes. I describe my life as the by product of sadness taking a crap on hopelessness. I have no dreams or pions in life. I hate people who are better than me or have goals in life. My brother (he is 10, Im 17) He's nearly taller than me, better people person than me and has the ability to complete surp me in every aspect of my life by 14. Im not really smart, athletic, or artistic. I can only do alittle of everything but Im not good at anything. I did sports (wrestling/football) to help find myself but it only reminded me how much I suck. In middle school I was very good at art now Im bad. It like the more I age the worst I get. I fear that Im slowly going into maddness with all this self loathing. I went to therpahy when my mom was in the Twin Towers but I hate it. I makes me feel crazy and in turn even more depressed. The only thing I found Im good at is putting myself down.